Bitch! Aight so me and Anna just got into a pretty big fight. Here's how it went. Okay so if you know me you should know that I'm really close to my girlfriend. I mean we usually talk like 6 hours a day. She's my sunshine! But recently I went back to school to UCM, a college about 35 mins from home, and things been changin. I mean we used to see eachother, what, every other day? So yeah I know, that's pretty typical but it's not like that. I've only been doing work and music and haven't even thought about messin' with other girls blah blah blah. So it's not what you think. It's just I think I've became dependent of Anna and very comfortable with our relationship. Almost to the point where I get jealous when she hangs out with her friends!
Okay, so basically Anna's been hanging out with her friend *no name* and *no name2* ALOT more recently. And trust me, both of the no names are very cool people and I have a lot of fun when I'm around them etc. BUT, they USUALLY get F***** up...well...everynight! And so, I've just been wondering if this 45 min distance and not seeing eachother as much is a sign that..hmm..maybe this isn't working for her. That this...new "hobby?" is some sort of rectification. I dunno.
I'm slightly deviating tho. Basically I semi-blew up. Okay here was my thing, and you can call me overprotective, anal or whatever, but all I asked is that she in any fashion let me know that she was okay - periodically. I mean that could be twice a night. That's all I asked. Sound hard? Well apparently so.
So here's how it went: Before she went out she told she was going out. Okay I was really happy she did that! So, a few hours roll around and I don't here from her. My girlfriend has a little tendency of going out of control with some things. I love her to death and I really don't want to imagine myself without her so I have an insatiable and downright innocent need to know that she's okay. Also, she has this convenient ability to forget her phone. So I'm sitting there calling and texting and there's no reply. I'm like hmm. Doesn't exactly inspire confidence, right? I mean am I justified here?
I mean add this up. Anna + Alcohol + Silence + Late night + Not answering the phone + Not texting back = me worrying. Make since? I mean, am I a bad boy friend because of that? I dunno. I actually just got this voice in my head that told me not to worry so much. Here's what I did tho.
So I text her friend no name and ask if she was okay. And she said yeah. THATS ALL I NEEDED FROM ANNA! haha So I tell her, "tell anna I she doesn't have to call me back" Guess what? NOW she calls and is all like I was busy and my phone was in the other room (convieniently.) So I'm like, all I needed was five seconds to say "I'm okay baby" BAM! Woulda had a good night. But no we end up crashing and burning on this independent shit.
She's like "I don't have to do this." Wait. What don't you have to do? Explain "this." I mean shit we LOVE eachother. We are interlocked. "This" is what I have to do and that should be mutual with you, right?
So I'm thinking she's on this independent trip now where's she's unknowingly distanced herself from me. I think it's because I'm in school and see her less. We used to talk every morning. I would call her after every class. She'd answer. We used to watch a movie on the phone on TV lol I mean little stuff like that is just gone. And I miss that. :-(. All because I just want to know if she's okay -- Miscommunication. So the moral of this story is Communication is VITAL for a healthy relationship. If not, you have MIS-Communication.
So, enough of the boring stuff. I had to get this off of my chest. Thanks for reading this (if anyone did lol)
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